HER view

The plane ride didn't seem like five hours with my new ereader. My sister gave it to me last night and told me to download a few books for the plane ride. She knows how much I love reading so I gave her a big hug and made my way to gate 35. This was my first time traveling alone and I was glad. I was happy that my parents trusted me enough to let me go alone. I grabbed my bags from luggage claim and headed toward the doors. I was starting to regret coming alone. What if I got kidnapped? What if I was in the wrong place? What if people try to talk to me? AGH. I'm a friendly person when I want to be. I prefer making friends when I want new friends. I don't really like it all that much when people try to talk to me. I was just starting to imagine a whole bunch of horrible scenarios when I saw a lady holding up a sign that said Ke'alohilani Pukahi on it. I walked up to her and her smile widened.

"Well, hello there darlin'. Is this you?" She pointed to the sign with her index finger but her eyes never left mine.

"Yes." I was raised to answer everything with 'yes.' Other words like 'yeah' and 'uh huh' were basically swear words in my house.

"Well that's great honey. Now... how do you say your name?" She looked down at the sign sheepishly and back at me. I wasn't surprised. A lot of haole people had trouble with my native hawaiian name.

"It's pronounced Ke-a-low-he-lani, but you can just call me Lani." She thought for a few seconds and then shook her head.

"I guess it's better for me to call you Lani than to butcher that beautiful name of yours." She seemed genuinely nice but I still wasn't sure. "Follow me this way dear. The shuttle is just outside."

It turns out I was the first one to arrive to the shuttle. I gave my bags to the driver and picked a seat in the middle. As we picked up more kids, I started to get the feeling that they all knew each other. Everyone was talking to someone else and they were all laughing. One girl with bright red hair came running to the shuttle looking a little sick, but a girl in the back called her over with a smile. Why was everyone so comfortable with each other? I looked around and I was the only person not talking to anyone.

It felt like a million years but we finally made it to our hotel. I grabbed my luggage from the driver and thanked him before I went inside. There were so many teenagers. I looked all around me until I saw a check-in desk. There was a nice

His view.

The last place I really wanted to spend my summer was at some stupid ass conference with a bunch of snobby white collared kids... but it's not like anybody really cares what I want. This was my parents way of getting me out of their hair for a few weeks. I still don't know how I got accepted into the program anyway. It's supposed to some future rich scholar losers of America kinda thing. It's gonna be torture. I already had plans. They consisted of spending the entire summer hanging out with my best friend Trey and trying to get Madison Caldwell to realize that I was the guy of her dreams. Not so much now. I'm throwing all the new crap that my mom bought inside a suitcase when I hear a knock at my door.
"Go away. I died." The door opens and my best friend since 3rd grade walks in the door with a smirk on his face. Trey is 16 like me and we've been buddies since I shared my Naruto book with him. He's tall, slender and black. Most of my friends are black and people think that;s weird since I'm white. Well, I'm european... but whatever.
"You look pretty alive to me, man." Travis catches sight of the suits and his eyebrows raise in response.
"There's some idiotic dress code for most of the days." I hated wearing suits and ties.
"That sucks. So when you leaving?"
"Tomorrow morning." My parents wanted to get to DC a day early. It's their way of getting rid of me earlier.
"Damn. Isn't it like 3 weeks long? I guess you're gonna have to forget about Madison then." Madison just broke up with her boyfriend last week and everyone knew that she didn't stay single for long. My life sucked. Travis quickly tried changing the subject when he noticed my expression.

"Don't sweat it man, there'll probably be a lot of girls up in DC." He was right but the last thing I wanted was some creepy, stalker girl with glasses and braces. Everyone knew smart girls were never as pretty as the dumb ones. Don't get me wrong, smart girls are hot... but dumb girls are smokin'.

Summer

So, it's summer && I've pretty much been working and hanging out with my family. Nothing new and exciting going on. I'm not really sure what to say now. There's nothing in my head..so maybe I'll just come back latersss.

I'm back.

So it's been a long arse time since my last blog. It's not like it really matters since nobody reads these xD Haha..but I guess a lot has changes since spring break. It's summer now. School is out && I got a job at 'Maui Island Grill.' Crystal hooked it up for me. I like it so far.. It's a job so I can't really complain. I haven't really done anything since school started but that's mostly because it started a couple of days ago. Ummm..as for boys, I'm talking to a couple of guys. There's this guy from Santa Clara, a guy from Utah, a guy from Salt lake, a guy from LA, and a guy I met at work. Haha... I've been on a roll [; I don't really talk to Bazinga anymore. He got back with Sarah :) Haha..good for them. He's supposed to be in Vegas this week but I don't know if he is. I told him that I'd be in VA while he was in Vegas, but I lied. I won't be in VA until next month && he'll be back from Vegas by then. I know what you're thinking---but I lied to him before he told me about him && Sarah. Lmao.. It wasn't some kind of ego trip that made me lie. I just didn't want him to know that I would be there. I mean, come on now, Norfolk is probably a huge ass place. There is no way in hell that I'll run into him! As long as I keep my eyes open & watch my surroundings, he'll never know I lied :) But anyways as for my guys [; I think my favorite one is the guy from work xD && did I mention he looks like Rain *sigh* Hehe.. There's not that much to tell but there will be...in due time [;

POOL DAY :)

Today was soo much fun!! I spent the day with Ashley and Steven at Steven's house. His house is soo fricken huge. It's like the size of me and Ashley's house put together. Haha..We had soo much fun. We went swimming and then hung out for the rest of the day. I got to talk to Bazinga a lot but I realized that I need to quit that boy cold turkey x/ It's getting ridiculous how much I talk to him. I'm bordering on Ashley-Micheal status && that's not good! I decided that I'm not going to talk to him for a couple of weeks. I need to cleanse my system of him and he needs to do the same. We haven't crossed the line yet but I don't want to keep watching out for that damn line! Lmao. I need to stop saying sweetie and honey and babes. He needs to stop that too. We both need a break. Jeez. Li is upstairs w/ a tootheache. She can't sleep. My mom is sitting with her right now and she's crying. It's going to be a long arse night for the both of them. I'm still debating on whether or not I'm going to stay up with them. I probably should. I'm not that good a person so I probably won't. Jeez. I'm horrible

Feelings :/

So tonight is my official last night of FREEDOM! The kids will be here tomorrow && then goodbye fantasy land xP I'm kidding. I'm excited that they'll be living with us and I can't wait but I will miss some of the advantages of being in a mostly empty house. On the bright side, there will be noise again. It's gotten way too quiet in this house. I need noise!!! On the down side, we're probably going to have a lot more family talks. I can't stand those. I'll even go so far as to say I HATE them with a passion!!! I hate sharing my feelings with people. I don't have feelings and I'm not some stupid little 5 year old girl who needs to cry it out! This is not good for me because my family just so happens to be really big on 'feelings.' They always want to talk about how we feel and if we're okay. Ugh! It's not like we're all therapists! I deal with my crap in my own way and I'm perfectly fine with my own methods. I don't need people knowing my business and stuff. I actually prefer that they were clueless. I can sweep it under the rug and leave it there. It's horrible, I know, but it's my way. That's why I don't really have boyfriends. I can't stand clingy. And 'clingy' to me is like 'devotion' to them. They just don't get it and I don't blame them. I know that I'm a weirdo and I'm stupid but that doesn't change how I feel.

It's almost 2 in the morning and I'm still sitting on this computer. I've been waiting for Bazing for an hour but I guess he got busy at work xD I've been talking to a couple of people while I was waiting. They're just a bunch of random guys jabbin at me but it's cool. It was funny. I was talking to this one guy who had his girlfriend all over his page but as soon as i asked he took her off and was like "she's just a friend" LMAO. Boys are clueless! haha..Well I saw the kids again today. They might be staying with us starting Thursday. I know that part of me doesn't really want them too but the bigger part of me doesn't want them to be anywhere else. I hope they're not scared and stuff. I love them and I can't wait for them to come. Uncle Rendo talked to me and anna today. He was telling us to call him if we ever got into trouble that we couldn't handle and we didn't tell our parents. It was helluh nice. He said he's gonna take us out so he can have an idea of what it's like to have teenage daughters. LOL. I guess I don't blame him for being curious, but me and deanna are horrible influences xD haha..Look at me. My eyes are glued to this damn computer and its nearly two in the morning. jeez. I need sleep =P G' Night.