Feelings :/

So tonight is my official last night of FREEDOM! The kids will be here tomorrow && then goodbye fantasy land xP I'm kidding. I'm excited that they'll be living with us and I can't wait but I will miss some of the advantages of being in a mostly empty house. On the bright side, there will be noise again. It's gotten way too quiet in this house. I need noise!!! On the down side, we're probably going to have a lot more family talks. I can't stand those. I'll even go so far as to say I HATE them with a passion!!! I hate sharing my feelings with people. I don't have feelings and I'm not some stupid little 5 year old girl who needs to cry it out! This is not good for me because my family just so happens to be really big on 'feelings.' They always want to talk about how we feel and if we're okay. Ugh! It's not like we're all therapists! I deal with my crap in my own way and I'm perfectly fine with my own methods. I don't need people knowing my business and stuff. I actually prefer that they were clueless. I can sweep it under the rug and leave it there. It's horrible, I know, but it's my way. That's why I don't really have boyfriends. I can't stand clingy. And 'clingy' to me is like 'devotion' to them. They just don't get it and I don't blame them. I know that I'm a weirdo and I'm stupid but that doesn't change how I feel.