APRIL :)

So, It's 12:35 a.m on a Saturday morning. I'm only sitting on this darn computer cause I'm talking to Bazinga. I wanted to go to sleep a long time ago but I still haven't. I haven't blogged in a while because I'm on restrictions again. My parents found out how I'm failing a lot of my classes. I'm working on getting my grades up though. They know about everything. I'm not stressed out anymore :) Well, not stressed about school. My family is always going through crap, but this time things got really bad. My aunty and uncle got their kids taken away from them. My uncle beat my little cousin up because he found out that he might be held back. The state came to the house and arrested my uncle and took the kids. That was 5 days ago. The kids are still staying in the Children's Center. If we're lucky, all three of them will be living with us by Thurday. We're going to be seperated from them on Easter but as long as we get to see them soon, that's fine with me. I'm going with my mom and brother to go and see them tomorrow. I'm so excited. I'm close to the kids and I really miss them. I hope everything works out. I would pray but I've been feeling hypocritcal everytime I think about church or religion. I just need to get right with God again. I hope that things will be easier for me but I don't know...sometimes it feels like it can't. I've been keeping a positive attitude on things and I'm proud of myself but then again...am I just lying to myself? Ugh. Life's questions :/